Today’s post Is about those evil Nicotine filled addictive Cancer/COPD/Emphasyma sticks.
I loved smoking! Or did I? Was my body just fooling me into thinking It was great, was It really just the addiction talking? Did the addiction make me associate good times with smoking? That 5 minutes away from the world where I could peacefully have a cigarette, relax and reflect on things. That social time where you would get all the gossip with the other smokers. The random conversations with strangers In a pub garden shelter whilst you freeze your butt off in the winter as all your non smoker friends sit In the warmth and enjoy each others company. That cigarette which tastes so good as you sip on your alcoholic beverage. These are the things which pop into my mind when I start craving one…
Then I think about It seriously…. do I really want one? The smell…. why did I think nobody could smell It If I sprayed a load of perfume and had a mint! I used to think my dad had an amazing sense of smell when he commented on how I smelt hours after having a cigarette…. nope he was just like most non smokers who can breathe and smell well, it stinks! When you smoke you just don’t seem to smell It, now I don’t like to be around the smell because I don’t want It to stick to my clothes. I think to myself I’ve worked hard not to smell like that…. please bugger off with your gross smelling smoke!
The cough… the phlegm with streaks of black, I haven’t had one of those awkward moments since stopping where you know you’re going to have a coughing fit in a quiet environment or mid conversation, trying so hard not to start coughing until you wretch!
The tiredness, the short time It would take me to get out of breath. The dullness to my skin, the yellow stain to my teeth, the way It completely takes over your life and everything has to fit in around with your routine of having a cigarette, the list goes on…..
All those movie stars that made smoking glamorous , I think today’s children are finally learning, smoking was never and will never ‘be cool’… and jeez, how anyone can afford It I’ll never know!
So when I get a craving… even after 8 months on, this Is what goes through my mind and I remember… It’s an addiction, I don’t miss It, they were killing me and probably have already done alot of damage!
Now I am one of the worst… the ex smoker, even more annoying than a non smoker, I understand It’s very hard to give up and you have to be determined and strong willed, but I also know It’s not impossible and nearly everyday I see the effects of what smoking can do to you long term.
So have you given up? Or do you want to? Or do you not want to? Or have you never smoked?
I used nicotine patches and cut down the dose over 3 months, what worked for you? Or what hasn’t? And why hasn’t it?
Thanks for reading 🙂